Most complicated thing that live in Human body

After going through some experience on sharing Christ, i realize that.....is easy to change someone look, someone habits.........but is not easy to change someone Heart! Heart is the complicated thing that God gave us......it can be very weak...and yet it can be very strong!

All this while i have been sharing bout Jesus Christ to my friends and family.......but it seems like.....the word just cant stay in their mind for more than 1 sec....just because their heart was rejecting it...but why? They can talk avthing....even some unreasonable thing can make them spent their time to think.....but why cant they just accept the fact? Hmm ,neways this was just my personal thought/opinion....

To tackle a person is not easy.....but to change a person thinking and heart........is TERIBLE ,HORRIBLE HARD! ( jz insert some word that can express my feeling,jz forget bout it...) .....Well......i wont give up so easily.....i still have plenty of time....Even the last breath of mine....i wont give up on you! Sorry but i have to..... I WILL LET THEM KNOW WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY AND FEELING FOR THEM NOW, ONE DAY........THEY WILL KNOW THE TRUTH THAT HAS COVER BY THE WORLD !

Ps ,so Semangat.....who wan me to share bout Christ now? Pm me.....i will try my best and be there for you if want to know bout Him.......

Jesus help me again....

I am doing the Business Law assignment now.....the Lord has gave me wisdom on how to find the information from the points that the lecture give today. I have wrote 1000+ words...still got another 1000 word to go and i will complete my whole assignment. I wonder why the information that i find came out so easily...it must be the works of the Lord...who manage every file properly for me...^^

But i wish the Lord can grant me strength to complete the assignment by today.....because i am getting sleepy already......mind was getting blur and blank.....with a panda eyes ( i guess, havent look at the mirror yet...) @.@ I NEED STRENGTH!!

The Painting- Way to Heaven

To walk with the Lord...is not easy....is like balancing yourself on a straight line...

But,the Lord wont leave you alone...He will walk with you through everything....He will correct your step so that you wont fall...

Challenge comes in to drift you away from the Lord

Put God first

I have been challenge by the devil this few days.....i met someone who is bit abnormal ,he came to the Youth to find us and keep on sending me FUNNY message which disturb me alot....as well as sending some disgusting msg, i start cursing him infront of my friends...and scolding him....due to the fear and anger that i have in my heart. Then ....in the moment i cursing,i noe the Holy Spirit did ask me to stop...i should'nt curse him nor scold him...and 1 of my friend (Jason) tell me the second commanment...eventhough the second commanment he mean is Love ur neighbours and enemies...but the 2nd commanment that came to my mind before he said that was...No other God.

I have choose not to listen to the Holy Spirit while scolding him ...and refuse to do anything that Holy Spirit ask me to do....then slowly ,i realize...did i put God first in this circumstances? i have put my anger before Him..i have lost self-control....what am i doing? Then...i think....God can do everything...He can help me in this trouble....He is the creator of everything.....so,just pray to Him and ask for help la.....why fear alone?? Duh~ Fear for unworthy thing.....

Jesus cares for everyone

Jesus is a loving God and a caring God who never left out 1 of His children.Once we declare Him as our saviour and our Lord, He will guide us and protect us in every circumstances. He knows when a small little sparrow fell from the sky...what bout us? We are even more important to Him than a little sparrow....

Everytime we pray...we nvr get the ans that we want and we says that God doesnt cares. But, He hears us..just that He need times to work for the prayer...He need time to give you a perfect ans for your prayer.....a perfect ans,just for you. Sometimes.....did we give Him a chance to ans? Or we just speak and nvr listen?

Jesus is like a shepherd...a shepherd who would'nt allow any of His sheep to get lose from His sight and His protection....He will search for the missing one till He found....He will yell and try His very best to find that lossing sheep before the predator find them...Nothing can stop Him..

Many of us is like a lossing sheep....loss our faith and our sight was away from Him....but, i notice that He is working hard to bring us back...use our friends as a vessel to reminds us...opening many doors for us to go back to Him. He just want every of His children to be save before the end time come...just like a Father who always wants His children to be at His protection and avoid them from going to the wrong way that will hurts them.

I see Jesus working for my prayer

2.26am , I am doing my Business Law assignment right now. About 1 hour plus ago...i am praying to Him to give me wisdom on how to do this assignment....i got no idea what to write and even what to find..i have try many searching on google,yahoo,altavista......by typing the question of this assignment....but...the result was all craps.....i so worried bout coundnt pass up a single word to my lecturer on 13th Nov 08 . Few minutes later, i suddenly think of 1 of my friend, Sheryn,who took Business Law before..i pm her to ask for help. She is so kind to help me, she help me find many point i can write for this essay...and she is kind enuf to help me on my introduction . I really thank God for her, a KIND and GOOD friend !! Now i wondering whether i can complete my assignment within this two days....I pray that God will continue guiding me in this assignment...so i wont write out of topic and able to summit my essay on time.

Today's sermon

Today sermon was preach by Pastor Albert. He preach bout wud we will go through before the 2nd coming of Christ. He says bout disaster like Tsunami, Earth Quake...and uncure diseases like SARS....it sounds very scary when i first heard...he also mention bout.....christian who stand still with God being torture by humanbeing ....i was afraid of whether my faith to Jesus is strong enuf to withstand all this or not....will i give up on Him ....and on that moment i dont even sure whether my name is in the Book of Life or not........

But,when Pastor show the slide bout Fig trees...about victory.....my eyes was full with tears by the background of that slide...the background was just a beautiful forest scene...with healthy green leaves....i imagine of myself hiding behind those trees and holding a Bible while the people was looking around for me and i cry to the Lord to ask Him help me to be strong enuf and may His word show me the way .....i oso imagine that the Lord was beside me while i am askin for help .....this imagination just strike my mind when the backgroud appear....

THE FIG TREE

Many ppl will say i wont leave God before the incident for second coming of Chirst happen....included me........but also many will choose to leave Him when it happen...........is so scary...i dont noe whether i am gonna be the one...i really wish Jesus can bring me home now..really wish....

Yesterday when i was sleeping....God spoke to me in my dream, He says, no matter what happen and how u are, I will still love you. I was awake when this sentences come to me...and i knew is Him who speak to me on that moment....I really dont noe wud to say bout this Great father....He is so great........And i really wish...i can hear from Him some comfirmation word..........not from anyone but He Himself....i wish He is the one who preach to me avday....so i can put all my trust and faith in what He says....

Before the sermon come to the end, Pastor Albert show some Second coming of Christ picture, I see Jesus coming back with His soldier, and His hand was widely open to welcome all His children to come back to His house....His safe arms..a place where nobody can threat us...not even the devil...who tell us trillions and evenmore lies in this Sin World....
Pastor also ask us to pray to the Lord to comfirm our name was written on the Book Of Life starting from this day...i am so glad bout this, becoz i am wondering whether Jesus did write my name in the Book Of Life or not for a very long time....and i am sure for now that my name is in.
I pray to the Lord that i could stand still and my faith can grow stronger day by day to Him. And get me ready for the second coming of Christ,let no one can change my mind and no one can take away my heart for Him.Even the torture which i might have to go through. I wouldnt want to end up looking up and ask for help from my heavenly father in hell with the devil. Is so scary.....nothing in this world can compare with the torturing that happening in the hell right now! NOTHING!!

Jesus warn us that He will be coming back very soon, an unexpected timing, so Get ready for Him!

God Punishment

10th of sept......Melissa asked me whether wanna go for the Walk through the New Testament on 17th of sept...I refuse to go...cause majority of my friend is not going and i lazy to listen to talk...

On that nite i started to fall sick..i tot mayb i sit infront of the com for the whole day.....so feel uncomfortable oni....then the next day,i got fever,sore throat ,running nose and my whole body was so painful exspecially my head and stomach..and no one was at home,i hav to get up and make my own lunch..(1st time make my own food during sick.....) ..i pray so hard that God will heal me....but is like not working...i thought mayb it takes time.....then i try every method that can make my fever gone......but useless.....

Then today.....after i prepare my lunch i read Pastor Alvin msg......about the Walk thru the New Testament....i suddenly realize that is not i sit infront of the com for so long that cause me sick but is the Lord take away His protection over me to tell me that i shud go for the Talk...

Beside realize that i shud go for the Talk i oso realize that......God can bless us..but if is necessary ,God will also punish us to let us wake up.....

But God is also a almighthy God,eventhough He take away His protection over me,but i feel that He is always beside me and take care of me ....this time of sick is not that suffer compare to last time....at least i still can cook 4 myself and watch tv....Eventhough the Lord punish you,but His love will always greater than the punishment.......Is true....

This book Rox!

This book, Heaven Is So Real give me a picture of how heaven actually looks like as well as hell and how God actually work on us...and how He prepare us to do what He has plan for for us...beside that...i know how loving is our God and how gentle is Him. Through this book, God ask me not to give up on Him and He will always be with me. The most important thing that i realize after reading this book is...He is coming very soon...an unexpected timing .

Today in my youth we watch "Facing The Giants" ,this story talk bout how God actually turn an impossible thing to possible.....and it really inspiring and touch us...i almost cry while watchin. After that we watch a video clip which show a man who have cancer and praising Lord with the song Healer in his concert. He say that how God help him and working in him, the song that he sang is very touching ,every word he sang hit my mind and i know that the Lord did the same thing to me.....

Healer
Verse1
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You

Chorus
I believe You’re my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You’re my Portion
I believe You’re more than enough for me
Jesus You’re all I need

Bridge
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

The demon attack me this morning

Today 4th of august,when i was sleeping i was attacked by demon. When i was still asleep i actually saw something standing in front of my bed ,i cant see clearly what is that , i just saw something black and look scary. By that time i my mind was 80% clear but i guess this thing i saw is in my dream......but i have a rasional mind by that time and the whole environment is actually exactly same with my room so i really not sure i was in a dream or not.....u all know that demon can actually attack u in many ways.....in dream is one of it.Suddenly i saw it jump to me and on that moment my whole body like.....shaking and "ma bi".......and i hear some weird and scary sound...

Then i was so scare....i begin to pray to Jesus in my dream,i ask God to help me to get rid of it..and i begin to rebuke it in the name of Jesus...i tried bout 3 times..but each time i open my eye i saw it standing there again.. the 3rd time i think it goes off when i shout " In Jesus's name you leave! U have no right to be in this room! Leave now ! Leave now ! In Jesus's name u leave right now!!"

I tot it left,then when i look straight i saw someone holding yellow colour pillow and blanket asking me,"am i sleeping here"....it abit look like my mom but i definitetly can tell tell you that she is not! She is one of the thing that come attack me...i was shock and quickly rebuke it..but i dont know where my courage came from and when i rebuke i believe the it will soon disapear if i continue to rebuke it in God's name...after 1-2 times i open my eye and stare at it......slowly slowly i begin to see that thing disappear and i realize that i was actually opening my eye in real life! Becoz when that thing disappear i saw my cupboard and i knew that i was awake....and i begin to weep and thank God.

I understand God let this happen to me cause He want me to know that He will always be with me and He is the only one can help me .

The best story i have ever read....

A TEENAGER'S VIEW OF HEAVEN

17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.

'Brian's Essay: The Room...

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.

I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

In Ns.....

Ns is the longest camp i have went and i dislike all those army training.....so i worried since 1 month ago before i went......but that day came so fast...the 1st day i went there,i am all alone...no fren and only God with me......wherever i feel lonely i will realize that God is always beside me .just i cant see Him but He is the only one who will help me and never leave me when i in need..in the bus i was actually crying and crying...cause i have to stay in this camp for 2 months ++ ...in the bus i was accompany by the worship song.....

On that nite i dont even have a fren,so i cried and i pray to Lord to help me..my faith was so strong when i in camp,i feel in this world only me and Him. The the next few days,we change Dorm again,and i shift to Dorm 3 ,i think the Lord hear my prayer and He gave me a best fren in Ns..she is the most kind and frendly gurl in Ns! She is a buddhist but she help me in avthing and share with me avthing,i was so please to have this fren...after that i dont feel lonely anymore .

And 1 time i went to the Dorm 1 bathroom to take bath coz my Dorm 3 bathroom got some problem. I went to the Dorm 1 1st bathroom,they have 3 there. When i was about to open the shower i realize that the shower is spoilt and the water hardly to flow out...i was thinking oh my.....i still have to rush for the activities and the next bathroom got ppl......then Jesus Christ came to my mind...i try to use Jesus name to rebuke the shower........i try 2-3 times...then i think i was just trying but in my heart really hope that it will work...when i open the shower the water really flow out ! Amazing huh...then when i came out and the next person went in ,i heard that person shouting " Hey! why no water one!! "

Church camp(2006)....

The 1st high praise camp i went is actually a combination of adults ,teenage and children......but this is the most wonderful camp i have went ...this is actually my starting point of knowing Jesus. In that camp Jesus spoke to me........the 1st time of my life. In this camp He told me that He has given me joy and i now fill with joy...and in this camp i starting to see what Jesus has done to me...i saw He die on the cross for our sin , He was nail to the cross ,and i also saw He was crying cause many of His chidren disobey Him,didnt know Him and turn away from Him...on that camp all of us was crying and crying for the Lord,for what He have done ...for what He has sacrifice and for His great love for us. After that camp i knew that God is real,God is always beside me and help me during my trouble...our God is awesome an God!!

Gift that Jesus has gave me...

I came from a broken family which mean my parents divorce when i was bout 7years old...but i dont know why i able to accept this without any struggle....till the year 2006 in a church camp...i realize one thing..while i worshipping Him and crying to Him,Jesus Christ tell me that He have give me the gift of joy and now I am fill with joy. That moment i realize that, throughout this 9 years i have live in a broken family without any "problem" is actually not my own strength ...but is Him,He who gave me the joy and be with me always and always. Sometimes i even see He is holding my hand when i was a small kid and walk with me and carry me when i was a baby..like a Father . And i oso knew that He has given my mother strength to overcome everything that come toward her so that she can bring us up. Lord has done alot of thing in my life and my family...Thanks You Jesus....